Twenty Four Hours in the life of Heroin Addiction.

Personal poem/story of my heroin addiction through my eyes.

Waking up by tossing and turning in bed. 

Drenched in sweat, upset stomach, I rush down stairs.

All the dope is gone, tried to save some for the morning,

But I couldn’t.

Can’t eat or sit still.

My bones feel like they are just going to crumble.

Every movement is a struggle.

Rushing to figure out today’s plan with one thing on my mind.

Heroin.

I have no money and the dealer’s wont front.

As the minutes go dragging on,

I’m getting sicker and sicker.

I hurry to put myself together,

Having to hustle for some money,

To feel better.

Return some cans,

Sell my clothes,

Made enough, down to the city I go.

Transaction complete.

Rushing, shaking, to use as fast as I could,

To feel better.

Once, I take my hit,

Instant relief, temporarily.

During these next thirty minutes,

I feel like my old self,

Desire to get clean arises,

Promise myself tomorrow is a new day,

To get clean.

To feel better.

I use for the rest of the night,

Still goal in sight.

Throw everything away.

Once everything was gone.

No reminders for tomorrow.

Going to bed now.

Sleeping.

It’s five in the morning.

Waking up by tossing and turning in bed. 

Drenched in sweat, upset stomach, I rush down stairs.

All the dope is gone, I threw everything away.

Panicked.

I return to yesterday’s routine.

Fearing the withdrawal.

Beat myself up because I failed.

Again.

Everyday like groundhogs day.

On repeat.

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